How Red Sneakers Changed My Life

So I was going through my old journals and I remembered this. I wrote this ages ago. It seemed incomplete at the time, and I thought I'd get back to it later. I never did, and now I kinda like it this way. all I associate with you Formula 1 pit stops and tattered Marvel comics stained with last night's anchovy pizza the rising and setting of the sun every day  flowing and ebbing around you and the sound of your voice Malaysian supermodels and Eminem rapping about Haylie to this indifferent world. Waking up alone and wondering if it'll ever be different someday

"Take any emotion-love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what I'm going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions-if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them-you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.  But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.'  I know you think this is just about dying," he said, "but it's like I keep telling you. When you learn how to die, you learn how to live." -Tuesdays With Morrie

It's so easy to get hurt on this planet. Human beings are imperfect, and they're rarely able to get from each other what they truly want. Relationships are messy. No matter how close two people might be, in reality I feel they're still alone, because it's impossible to truly stand in the other person's shoes and actually know what they're thinking and what they expect from life, what they expect from you...and isn't that how people get hurt? Because of this unbridgeable communication gap that can never really be overcome? What are the chances of having someone in your life who can give you exactly what you want? If you have someone like that, I'd say you're pretty darn lucky. I sometimes wonder why things seems to work out so easily for some people-they don't even have to try-while for others, no matter how much they give, it's never enough. But then I think everyone must have their fair share of problems in life, we probably just don't ...