A little uncertainty is good...I think.

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You know what worries me? That post-exam feeling I get once the semester's over and we're on vacation. I just feel so..useless. And confused about what I want to do with my life. I suppose it's because I'm focusing so much on passing all my courses during exam time that once they're over, the sudden feeling of aimlessness throws me off balance:P I hope I figure out what it is exactly I want to do by the time I finish undergraduate. And that I learn to live without the reliability of an educational institution someday in the future.



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